#GAYLOVE
Why are men afraid of titles ? what is the major issue? .. you want a good
man or do you want a side dude who is
always going to be there waiting for u ?
so you don’t want a title but you
want me in your life .. were “
Friends” but friends don’t have sex friends don’t call each other and text
like we do all day … hmmm .. so is this a “ TEST” ..
ok so I guess the test is to play lets pretend we are
just friends but secretly we are really
in a relationship … # Weird ! …. Part of me likes the idea but another part
of me is like why the bullshit and games ? am I not good enough ? … well if
friends say I love you everynight
and that friend is the one u think about calling first thing in the morning .. then maybe “ friends “ isn’t so bad … Ive
been so guarded and so used to operating a certain way my brain works in BLACK OR WHITE no GREY area
.. it just cant be GREY its
like you
EITHER take ME or leave it good , bad , or in different . I don’t ever want to be that dumb man
who thinks they have a potential man waiting for them and in actuality he
talking to many other men instead
of just being there for you so maybe I should explore my other options and try and
not focus so much on the man I love ,
instead I will focus on the man I love the most which is me .. I need him to know that im not just waiting around for him and
waiting on the pulse of my IPHONE for his calls … I need to find security in my own relationship
and be confident that in myself and know that
I cant control what another man does ..
I just have to focus on myself and know that im doing the right thing
and Im working on a better me and
hopefully a UNION between me and YOU ,
I wonder if he knows how much I
LOVE HIM and if he doesn’t know why
would he want to evan talk or be with me he must see some potential in me .
XOXO- BLACK GAY BOY LOST ..
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